I am not surprised......

The sun baked my skin like a salted fish.  Now as a salted fish, I yearned for the ocean to give me life. But somehow, inevitable.

It's not that bad, for at least I am still breathing and its a good day to do laundry. The sky is clear, bright and sunny. A change in my comfort zone as I'd always prefer rainy weather.

Seasons change. Unstoppable. It's not that bad. Back to sunny days, at least I can see clearer than ever.

It's not that bad. It's the beginning of all things cheerful. :)

Thank you and Goodbye 2011!

I will be dressing up to welcome 2012 and be surrounded with love because life is getting more fabulous than ever! WAHOO!

I wish everyone all the best and be happy always!

Hugsssssssssss!

INsane

I'd always say...... If the problem can be solved with money, its never a problem at all.

One step a day, one breathe at a time and slowly forcing down each taste of bitterness in acceptance of the fundamental rules of life. But it is truly acceptance or simply denial? Why do we fight in the first place?  Hasn't it all been decided from the moment we were born? So why do we struggle so much? I figured, its for the fun of it. 

Flying Colors

I just got back from Bangkok 2 nights ago. I was there on business for 6 hectic days. Okay I admit, half the time I was shopping.. :P  lol

I haven't been to BKK for 5 years. So much has changed. This is my first time shopping in Bangkok without buying shoes. I guess my legendary BKK (Bangkok) shoes days were over. Anyway shoes in Bangkok are not that cheap anymore. But thats not the point. The thing is the quality is really bad. Anyway, during the GSS I've gotten myself 6 pairs of CK and a pair of D&G. :P That's enough to last me till Xmas and even Chinese New Year. I'm surprised I managed to get myself a few tops and dresses in BKK because usually I have no luck in that as the "cutting" are not likely to fit me.

Work was good there.  The Thais are really professional in their jobs. Got everything done on time on target and that's the main point.

Now I'm looking forward to my next trip to Taiwan in November. I've never been to Taiwan before. I'm hopping to spend 2 weeks there. 3-5 days for work and the rest will be leisure. I hope to visit my friends too.

I maybe visiting Vietnam in October too. Crossing my fingers...  I hope to get that project so that I could immerse myself with Vietnam coffee in the beautiful Saigon's countryside.

Life is beautiful..... To work and play. Cheers!!

Seriously

So I have 52 days to prepare what I'm gonna perform for my 2 up coming public events. Honestly, I never have a clue. But the universe always provide me with enough inspiration to make it through. Seriously, its always the heart that counts. End results doesn't matter as long as one puts enough effort and heart on it. I seriously think so. To me its all about being able to answer to my own conscience, my heart.

I haven't been able to work on my new script, its my second actually. Maybe I need to give myself a deadline. Okay I do have some disciplinary issues because life has been really enjoyable. I am thankful that I am able to choose when I want to work and when I want to play. I usually only get my butt to work when I am bored with having fun. I know, this sounds wrong and illogical to most people on earth because we were taught to work and deny our need to have fun. Having fun is sinful, having fun means lazy and having fun is a waste of time. But seriously, creativity cannot be forced upon. It gotta come naturally in a clean state of mind and heart. Creativity and inspiration comes from living in the moment of time, appreciation of life and making time for people around you. At least this is how it works for me.

Now that I am almost bored with having fun so its time to play! Nahh... Work is never work to me but a "special playtime", another form of having fun actually. Enough infos and data has been collected through my fun time to make my "playtime" super productive.

Looking forward to play!! WAHOOO!

Diva's Cafe 咖啡厅 16

For my best friend, brother and comrade, Jerry who passed away on May 2010.

Happy Birthday.

Rant

I am really sick of being sick as I've been ill for 2 over weeks. But the good thing is, I lost lots of weight. I was hoping to get myself to the pool or gym, but not in my condition today. Not that I am feeling weak but I just know I've a little more to heal before I get back to my activities.

I hate to take medications but I've had made a point to finish what the doc ordered this time. I have seen my GP not once but thrice. 7 types of medications after each meal....eeeeeeeeeew. Glad that I'm now left with just 2 days of antibiotics and I'm done.

I am so tempted to see my GP again and what holds me back is the fear of being put on more new drugs. Somethings just gotta wait. 2 days, after that if I still don't feel well, I shall go see my GP again. So meanwhile, I just gotta bear with it.

Seriously, I think the whole point of my rantings here is more about not able to have butterscotch milkshake and ice cream....... :P lol

As usual.

I have lots of great news to share. However the details are not important but my point is, I am very thankful for everything.

I've always been a lucky woman. It seems to many that I always get what I want but little known to them is, that's because I've had learned the art of contentment. I've never live my life based on what others think or thought of me. My success is not measured by anyone's expectations but my very own. I am proud of this. My bragging rights!! :P

Little things makes me happy. Such simplicity of finding joy in everyday life, doing anything I wanna do. Be it a $8 or $2000 pair of shoes, I see equal value in both, as long as I am wearing it. That is not the kind of maths that many would understand. It's all about what I truly value at the end of the day. No one should set a minimum price tag on my shoes and I'll never allow it. I decide what I wanna pay for and what I wanna wear on my feet to walk in life. Yep, another one of my crazy shoe theory.

How could I not be thankful? Complete freedom at heart and mind.

My painful investments are all paying off, achieved all my goals that I've had set for myself as a child and had traveled to many places I wanna go. So for now all I need is to decide on a new goal.

Well, I've had fun especially for the last couple of years. I'd always make sure I'll have fun in any situation. Be it hard life or good, to me its always about finding fun and making things fun from within. So how hard can life be when one is having fun? Sugarcoat the burnt toast if that is what one can only afford for dinner so it will not be too hard to swallow. One gotta fill the stomach, why not sprinkle on some sugar? We can decide what we want on the toast. Yes we all can as long as we find the strength and beauty within.

Well it's my choice now, if I shall crazily chase a new carrot hanging on the stick or simply step back and breathe easy. I shall decide when I wanna decide even now its almost time for me to decide after such long breaks. I thought so. Whatever.

My next goal would be even a harder one. However I shall continue to eat, play and sleep over it. I am never interested in anything that is achievable by norm. I love to make the impossible happens.

For now I shall just focus on nursing back my health and step up on my energy level. Age is catching on me and my body has been protesting lately. So first thing first, see ya at the gym.

WHAOOOOOOO!