Report Book Blues

End of year can be somewhat depressing yet it can be fun and exciting at the same time. I guess when one gets older, each year end means lost of time and precious youth. Of course youth is something we are losing every second the minute we were born.

Year end is also a time when you get your report book. It tells you your milestones of not just the current year but also a summery of what you are now and before. When you take a hard look again on that report book, you know right away, whats working for you and whats not. A third look at it tells you what should be done for the coming new year.

Oh yeah. That very report book can make you either feel rewarding or depressing. But the depressing part seems to come in more often than the rewarding part. Reason is simple, we will never feel contended no matter how much we have had achieved. There are always something we should have had done or something we all shouldn't. Just like what we always say "If I had known...". Conclusion is, we are never gonna know.

All I know from my report book this year is, There are lots of "I SHOULD/COULD HAVE HAD"...... Oh well, I can see that clearly now and that's gonna be what I will work on next year.

Meanwhile, its year end. I concluded at this point of time, I shall have a 2 weeks break and just enjoy myself for now. Yeah, let my lazy bones take over me to relax and to recharge, for the road to my next report book is gonna be a long way later. Reality shall resume on 2nd Jan 2011. CHEERS!

Sunflower

What do you see in a sunflower? Is it something that brings you joy, fills your heart with love the moment you're awake or simply just a plant, a flower that serves no purpose but a piece of decoration?

Who is your sunflower? Is it someone or something like how you would wear as a scarf on Tuesday and it will simply be buried in your wardrobe for the rest of 364 days?

When do you see a sunflower? Is it something you would only take notice when you walk into the hotel lobby in Bali?

What is a sunflower, to you? When you don't have an answer, nothing matters to you but you.

The party has begun.

Nothing's much is happening. Just the usual things to do and to be done during xmas season thats all. This season there's a kind of peace in our hearts. Looking back, this feels like the best xmas season Prince and I ever had.

The point of cutting down all dead wood is to make way for new trees to grow. Its painful for us in the beginning but we are enjoying fruits from the new trees now. What didn't work for us in the past has to be thrown away, that's why we have spring cleaning. What's better than living in a clean and fresh surrounding so that we all can be well prepared to face new challenges for the coming new year?

The lights in town are splashed in our favorite blue. We are blessed to have just peace, love, joy, support and endless steamboat & moscarto parties.

Nothing much is happening really, it's simply wonderful. I'm loving it.

Speechless

A friend shared this on FB lately. "If life can be as simple as just sitting in front of TV with a tub of Ben and Jerry's..." Oh yes, it can be that way totally, if one can see no evil ,hear no evil and feel no emotion.

I've learnt quite an important lesson recently but only this very moment I start to fully understand it. I've had never like nor enjoy doing housework until recently. Everyday I took pride in cleaning up my house. But this moment I am thinking, no matter how hard I tried cleaning, washing and dusting, there'll always be dust and dirt. So this cycle will never gonna end. I can give 10 years of my life doing cleaning and trying my best not to give up but truth and fact is, it's a never ending thing.

Some things are not meant to be..... Its just me cleaning, the house will never clean itself.

Why bother? Skip the hurt and pain. I should just get a maid.

Diva's Cafe 咖啡厅11

一位老朋友为了买我爱喝的邻国咖啡粉给我居然排队了四十五分钟。 难得的不是咖啡却是这份心意。我的确是幸福的。需要帮忙时，朋友们都二话不说，双手自然的伸出来。我任性的时候，朋友们都包容我。我不开心的时候，朋友们也会哄我。我老“黄”卖瓜的时候， 朋友们也很乐意的聆听。我说要减肥，朋友们劝我不要节食。我说要登山，朋友们一口答应陪我去还自动的陪我运动健身。我，应该是快乐的。

今天的心情却是复杂的。不是不快乐，但就是不开心。可能，我又任性了。朋友们， 不好意思又让你们操心了。谢谢大家让我幸福的任性。。。 :)

Yard for reflections

I have an interesting yard. Its the place where I watch my washing machine spin and where my clothes are hung to dry. Yet its also a place where I do my daily reflections. Magic seems to work its power there. Maybe it has got something to do with the aura of the place or something. So many times, gossips, heart to heart talks and truth were all told in the yard. Even my friends are drawn to my yard.

You should be here

Like a sudden outburst in the middle of laughter, my heart sank for a moment. I had images running in my head, like a film playing by itself, I thought I saw you walked in. In your usual black shirt and jeans and that smile on your face, I repeated to myself that you should be here.

Almost everyone is here but you. You never failed to turn up when I call. Yet now, whats left of you in me are just my imagination. You are not a call away anymore. You had became my imagination.

You would have enjoyed the food. You would have enjoyed your stay. There are so much fun and laughter to share. Maybe I need to cry but I shall not for I should still set a good example to you be it you are dead or alive.

My dear friend, you'll always have a place in my heart. RIP

窗内，窗外

窗外的窗尽是残留的过去，窗内却是一个新的故事的开始。窗外的人是否记得窗内人的故事？　窗内的人何必在乎窗外的事？　终于，窗内的人把窗给关上了。窗外的人始终留在自己的窗内继续自己的故事。。。。