MIRROR - (Work in progress : Draft 2)

Mirror
A Monologue Written By Da Diva
(Work in Progress DRAFT 2)
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Woman(late 20s- early 30s)walks into the bathroom talking to the mirror.

You're so careful with things, people you'd care. No I mean to people you think who are worthy in your strange hidden world. You certainly took extra care with gifts people sent you as you'd always say, every gift is a thought and well wishes. You always get upset when things broke down, even for a cheap pen. How's that for a person like you? Sweet, wonderful, charming. How's that I never get to understand, the part for the only thing you'd break is me, no second thoughts. How strange... Its amazing how you could love and hold on to someone you hated? How's that? (beat)

And then I remember your little black book that you recorded all your hidden rainbow coloured life, the very reason you resented me for. (Beat) But how could you? How could you resent me for a choice you made? Maybe you have never made your choice. I don't know but I'd like to believe you did. I always believe you, I did, I still do, for all these years, can't you see? (beat, beat)

Sometimes I felt my life could end the very next day. Maybe I even wished for it. I don't know. But if it happens, I know I get to keep your love for eternity, I'm sure and that will be nice, more than... wonderful. This is really funny. Nope I'm serious, no I'm not. I mean really, funny. You know what's the funny part? (long laugh)(beat beat beat) Me. (beat) MEEEEEE! I knew it all along. You fu*king hate me! You FU*KING hate me! (Calms down) Yet I'm still here. (Beat, beat, interrupted by sound, turns her face to the door then puts on her smile) Yes honey!? In the bathroom! Just two more minutes please! (faces back to the mirror, beat) I don't know how you do it. I don't know how I did it. (Looks at herself at the mirror.Beat beat,beat. Quickly tidy up her make up and leave the bathroom)

Happy

Just read on yahoo news that "they" maybe taking off PUSHING DAISIES due to bad ratings. Noooooooooo! Yeah, just when I'm starting to kind of enjoy it.
Now I'm really looking forward to the new season of HOUSE and 90210.

I was at Scarlet Hotel for tea with Prince, Liz and JT last night. Nice place with sexy deco. Jones at Dempsey serves really good tea at very affordable price. Love the surroundings at Dampsey totally. Yeah, I've been having lots of tea sessions, be it day or night. Thats what my friends and I love to do when we hang out. Nothing beats interesting conversations amomg friends over a cup of tea and dessert. Love those discussions and debates from fashion to politics. A great way to learn from one another too.

I'm so gonna go swimming tomorrow with Mag. Its gonna be another fun day. I'm counting down the days when Brob and ML come back from UAE and States. Really looking forward to see them in a few more weeks. This christmas will be fun with all my love ones around me. I love my life.

Sleepless

I haven't been eating supper for at least two weeks. However, Jacq baked strawberry shortcake today. I couldn't help it so I had two servings. Okay, 3 servings. But I made it up by swimming for an hour at the pool. My body has been detoxing well, so I guess that's why I've been feeling weak. It must be the low sugar in my blood. Nope, I did not skip my regular meals and I'm glad I lost at least an inch from my waistline.

Not that I'm not sleepy now. I just didn't feel like sleeping that's all. Maybe it's the bears of Dow Jones tonight. But there's no reason for me to be sleepless over this because I have no investment in any stocks or such.

I have a wedding dinner invitation in Klang, Malaysia. At least this is a good news. I'm happy for this old friend who had found her happiness.

I guess it's the time of the year. Time to do some life re-evaluation.

No Regrets

I don't know if I am cursed or blessed in this case. Whenever I feel down, a few of my close friends will seem to have even bigger problems than me. Perhaps I kind of focus myself onto their problems, lending them my listening ear and after throwing in some cheap advise, when it's my turn to tell my story, suddenly my own problems seems to disappear. Maybe this is heaven's way of comforting me.

I'd always like to tell my close friends, if it can be solved with money, it's not a problem. To me, the worst problems are those that can't be solve with money. You can't buy all the time you need in the world with money if you have cancer. You maybe able to delay aging but you can never stop it with money. Whoever had passed on can't be brought back to life with money. You can't buy the smell of rain with money,can you? Like wise, no one can buy true love with money.

We are our own greatest enemy. We often kill ourselves with greed and envy. Contentment is the key to end all the sufferings. Those "what ifs" are also the top killers. I prefer to call them "cowardice". The fear of breaking out from the comfort zone. Comfort zone here means, things and situations that one are familiar. Sometimes when I get trapped, I would tell myself this, if my great-grandmother didn't have the courage to sail in that Chinese Junk, I would still be in China or maybe never be born. I shall sail on and make my own journey to add a brand new exciting chapter to my family history.

I don't know what's my future gonna be. Not that I don't care. I'm doing all I can at my best. For one thing that I'm certain is, during the last 5 minutes of my life on my deathbed I'd be smiling, because I know I did all I can for things I love to do. No regrets.

Blaaaaaaaa!

Blaaaaaaaa! I didn't do well in my audition. "Not My Day", is not a good enough excuse in my line of work. Actors are supposed to be master of emotion, I thought. However I was a dead fish. I need to slap myself 10 times for that. It's not about getting the job. It's about doing well. Moving on and will do better next time.

Met up with TC and J. We hung out at TC's studio for wine. 3 of us chatted till 4am. Today I was at wake of HC's grandmother. I'm so proud of HC because he never gave up his dream of being a commercial pilot when many around had laughed at his "foolishness". Now he's flying for the best airline in the world. The best part about him is that he's still the down to earth person I know.

Meeting PaPaP on Friday for birthday celebration dinner. This is gonna be so fun!!!

I haven't spoke to my elder niece for 3 days. I'm still very much upset with her. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Audition & Preparation

It's time to work! I don't know if I would get the job but I'm happy to be called up for an audition. Its almost 3am now. Gotta focus on my preparation. Gotta break a leg!

Cheers!

Announcement

I need to earn some school fees for my acting classes. I'm trying to raise 50k to continue my acting education in Los Angeles. Hence, Nuffnang ads have been added to this blog. Please bear with me.

Thank you for your kind understanding.

Mirror On The Wall

Mirror
A Monologue Written By Da Diva
(Work in Progress)
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Woman(late 20s- early 30s)walks into the bathroom talking to the mirror.

You're so careful with things, people you'd care. No I mean to people you think who are worthy in your strange hidden world. You are certainly careful with gifts people sent you as you'd always say, every gift is a thought and well wishes. You always get upset when things broke down, even for a cheap pen. How's that for a person like you? Sweet, wonderful, charming. How's that I never get to understand, the part for the only thing you'd break is me, no second thoughts. How strange... Its amazing how you could love and hold on to someone you hated? How's that? (laughs) This is really funny. Nope I'm serious, no I'm not. I mean really, funny. You know what's the most funny thing is? (long laugh)(beat beat beat)Me.(beat)MEEEEEE! I knew it all along. You fu*king hate me! You FU*KING hate me! (Calms down) Yet I'm still here.(long beat, interrupted by sound, turns her face to the door then puts on her smile)Yes honey!? In the bathroom! Just two more minutes please! (faces back to the mirror) I don't know how you do it. I don't know how I did it. (Quickly tidy up her make up and leave the room)