Back To Life

In real life no matter what happens, the sun will still shine the same the next day. Not that I don't feel sad about the deaths of my two relatives anymore but I have to make sure the sun in my heart still shines for the living such as my friends, relatives and family. It's time to let go and move on. It's time to get back to work. It's time to come back to life.

My next shoot date will be on 6th August. Small part this time but in the actor's 101, no part is too small and creativity should be the main focus point of any actor.

I was at the Money no enough2 movie gala and walked the red carpet. Even though I was smiling and waving to the audiences on stage at Vivo City but actually I had fallen ill on that day and with the 5 inch heels I wore added more burden to my already weaken body. But I really love those shoes even they were killing my feet. So much for the price of beauty........

On the 9th August I'm gonna be Jacq's 2nd unit wedding photographer cum outdoor make up artist. This is gonna be fun because we are going to various location from 8am - 11pm for the shoot and the highlight of the photo shoot will be during the fireworks! It's been a while since I work on a digital camera. Gotta go to my photographer friend and beg him to give me a refresh course.

I'm currently still working on DIVA Part3 - Being Versatile.
I'll post it up as soon as possible.

DIVA Part 1 - Being Diligent - Click Here

DIVA Part 2 - Being Intelligent - Click Here

Thank you my dear friends

Special thanks to Princessann and Cherlyn for the messages. Love you babes totally. Hugz

3 quarter empty

3 quarter empty glass of water or just a mere quarter full of water? Either way it leaves me the feeling of total dissatisfaction. This feeling is different from the half full or half empty glass of water theory thingy, if anyone get what I mean. Never mind...............

Another death occurred in my family. Two deaths within 3 days. Did I mention I also saw a dead kitten just 200 meters from home?

Yeah, I'm angry. I was upset but now I'm angry, at myself. Three life lessons learned from these three deaths, 2 humans and a cat.

I'll be a stronger person the next day.........

Life and Death

Sorry, I've not been really in the mood to update my blog.

1) My grand uncle had passed away two days ago......
2) PMS
3) Suffering from headache, heartache and indigestion.
4) 2 good friends leaving in August.
5) One of my best friend SQ is suffering from depression.
6) Brob is trying to move on after his break up.
7) Seriously refraining myself away from Godiva ice cream and those world class chocolates.

The only good news are:

1) The arrival of the new born baby girl of Mark & Cat Lee.
2) Prince got me the personal mini coffee maker I always wanted.
3) Bro Rey designed a pretty dress with real crystals and earrings specially for me to wear it to movie gala.

Oh well look at the bright side, at least there are some good news. But I must admit, I'm running away from being upset over the death of my beloved grand uncle. I don't wanna talk about it anymore for now. Will be back soon next week to update when I feel better.

Awakening

I love traveling because there is always something for me to learn from all my trips somehow. Years ago, when I was at the Great Ocean Road in Melbourne, I learned about how life can be beautiful at the most depressive point of my life. This trip back to Tioman Island, I learned that I do have a wonderful life.

5 of us were tracking to another Kampong in the forest along the coast. 4 of us were amazed by the scenic view as it was the first time for my friends to be on this beautiful island but for me I have had lost count. It was at this very same moment I realized I do have a great life! It's not about bragging of how many times I have been there but that moment when all the flashbacks of my life adventures came into my mind, I must say I did have a wonderful life!

At the Rockfall we met a couple and their children, I gladly shared my past experiences of the island with them. When the lady asked me how many times I've been there I told her I must have been there for 20 times. It was the look on her face again made me realized I do have a wonderful life!

If I have taken the beauty of the island by granted, I must have been taking my own life as in what I have for granted too. How could I? There's nothing wrong wanting a better life but I guess one gotta stop and look around at times, for contentment is also the basis to true happiness.

I can't write anymore now as I'm brain dead at 435am after a movie and supper. Will be back with pics and updates soon! Good night and good morning.......zzzzz

Back to Reality

Just got back from holiday yesterday and I actually slept from 6pm till 1030am the next day......
Will put up some pics soon! Meanwhile, I gotta go hug my pillow first...... Meeeeeeow!

Talking to Diva

Is this for real? I can't tell but I'm not gonna look back because I'm looking forward.

Holiday

Yeah finally! I'm soon going for a short holiday on coming Monday with many of my friends. Brob is back from UAE and ML is leaving in August to NYC for school, I guess it's great to finally being able to spend time together. 6 of us are gonna max it out and have a great time and this trip will bring back good memories for years to come. I'm gonna bring my DV! So now it leaves me last 3 days of road show before the fun begins.

By the way I did a photo shoot two days ago. Love the gown Bro Rey put on me. Come back soon for all the fun pics!!

Love this quote totally!

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today's a gift. That's why we call it "The Present".

Air Mail

The course catalogue finally arrived after crossing halfway round the globe. I was still dreaming and fantasizing about enrolling myself and spend 3 years in this prestigious school of dramatic arts until I opened the catalogue and saw the super unaffordable tuition fees. But this ain't gonna stop me. I'm gonna write in to apply even though I don't know if I can even afford the tuition fees for just the summer class.

Meanwhile, more course catalogues will be flying in from everywhere for the next few weeks. I'll just send in applications and see what happens. I may not even be accepted to any of my top 3 choices for I can't expect myself to be as lucky as the last time when it happened. But as I said, I'm still gonna try.

Two summers ago in Los Angeles, every time when my classmates complained about our intensive classes, I would tell them how lucky they were to have some of the best acting schools in the world right in their country while I have to fly all the way there and was almost being sandwiched to death in between two "coma-like" passengers for 18 hours on a cheap economy airline.

So this time, if it happens, it'll happen. When it really happen I'll find ways to deal with it. If it doesn't happen, I'll work harder and try to make it happen again. I miss school!

DIVA - Being Intelligent Part 2

For now I see myself retiring in Tuscany, 20 years later. I've never been to Tuscany myself but I've seen it in the movie "Under the Tuscan Sun". Everything starts with a dream and I've been dreaming all my life. I dreamed to be an actress as a child and some years later, I started to live my dream, for real.

The word "actor" is associated with fame, glitterings, attention, glamour, and admiration to many but in real life behind the scenes and curtain, the first lesson an actor needs to learn is how to deal with rejections. Dealing with rejections is one of the most important part of the acting business.

Selling dreams and fantasies are of a natural job of an actor. An actor sells a persona that many audiences themselves sometimes hope they'd be or possess. From physical likes to the romantic scenes the actor played, a dream is seemingly alive. In Bollywood, the biggest movie "factory" in the world which churns out about 5000 films a year says it all. As Jonathan Torgovnik, the illustrator of "Bollywood Dreams: An Exploration of the Motion Picture Industry and Its Culture in India" says in his book , "It is about going to see the actors larger-than-life. It is about living the glamorous life for a few hours and leaving your daily hardships behind".

So to some audiences, the actor lives in a perfect world because the actor seem to be using the least amount of sweat and blood to earn a living. Because of the mistaken perception, many perceive actors as bimbos. Ironically, being bimbo is also a persona that sells well as typecasting in the acting business in many cases.

The whole point of "Being Intelligent" here means to have high level of emotional intelligence, the will power to overcome and breakthrough one's pessimistic mind, mental blocks and dejection caused by both internal and external factors in order to achieve the desired goal.

The secondary is to be able to deal with rejections and dejection such as; being typecast , unable to get acting jobs for months which may lead to many monetary pressures from immediate family members and relatives, disapproval from casting directors, directors and audiences, being misunderstood and misjudged etc etc. The acting business is also about the waiting game of the long overdue big break for the actor that can lead the actor into serious dejection which may last for months and even years. There's a term in the acting business which describe best, "The struggling actor".

Come back soon for "DIVA - Being Versatile Part 3".

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I'm still in the process of learning to be Diligent & Intelligent in everything I do. Just like how one can't drive or operate a vehicle simply by learning the basic or advance theory, one has also got to learn the practical part before getting the driver's license too. Which means to say, I'm now learning to put into practice of what I had learn in theory.

So where do I get these "ideas/theories" about acting from? Acting books, acting coaches, autobiographies of great actors/ great acting teachers and many veteran actors I met on set.

All the above are my daily struggles and my learning process in general as a working actress and I'm glad to share my 2 cents POV here with you.