MIRROR - (Work in progress : Draft 2)

Mirror
A Monologue Written By Da Diva
(Work in Progress DRAFT 2)
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Woman(late 20s- early 30s)walks into the bathroom talking to the mirror.

You're so careful with things, people you'd care. No I mean to people you think who are worthy in your strange hidden world. You certainly took extra care with gifts people sent you as you'd always say, every gift is a thought and well wishes. You always get upset when things broke down, even for a cheap pen. How's that for a person like you? Sweet, wonderful, charming. How's that I never get to understand, the part for the only thing you'd break is me, no second thoughts. How strange... Its amazing how you could love and hold on to someone you hated? How's that? (beat)

And then I remember your little black book that you recorded all your hidden rainbow coloured life, the very reason you resented me for. (Beat) But how could you? How could you resent me for a choice you made? Maybe you have never made your choice. I don't know but I'd like to believe you did. I always believe you, I did, I still do, for all these years, can't you see? (beat, beat)

Sometimes I felt my life could end the very next day. Maybe I even wished for it. I don't know. But if it happens, I know I get to keep your love for eternity, I'm sure and that will be nice, more than... wonderful. This is really funny. Nope I'm serious, no I'm not. I mean really, funny. You know what's the funny part? (long laugh)(beat beat beat) Me. (beat) MEEEEEE! I knew it all along. You fu*king hate me! You FU*KING hate me! (Calms down) Yet I'm still here. (Beat, beat, interrupted by sound, turns her face to the door then puts on her smile) Yes honey!? In the bathroom! Just two more minutes please! (faces back to the mirror, beat) I don't know how you do it. I don't know how I did it. (Looks at herself at the mirror.Beat beat,beat. Quickly tidy up her make up and leave the bathroom)

Happy

Just read on yahoo news that "they" maybe taking off PUSHING DAISIES due to bad ratings. Noooooooooo! Yeah, just when I'm starting to kind of enjoy it.
Now I'm really looking forward to the new season of HOUSE and 90210.

I was at Scarlet Hotel for tea with Prince, Liz and JT last night. Nice place with sexy deco. Jones at Dempsey serves really good tea at very affordable price. Love the surroundings at Dampsey totally. Yeah, I've been having lots of tea sessions, be it day or night. Thats what my friends and I love to do when we hang out. Nothing beats interesting conversations amomg friends over a cup of tea and dessert. Love those discussions and debates from fashion to politics. A great way to learn from one another too.

I'm so gonna go swimming tomorrow with Mag. Its gonna be another fun day. I'm counting down the days when Brob and ML come back from UAE and States. Really looking forward to see them in a few more weeks. This christmas will be fun with all my love ones around me. I love my life.

Sleepless

I haven't been eating supper for at least two weeks. However, Jacq baked strawberry shortcake today. I couldn't help it so I had two servings. Okay, 3 servings. But I made it up by swimming for an hour at the pool. My body has been detoxing well, so I guess that's why I've been feeling weak. It must be the low sugar in my blood. Nope, I did not skip my regular meals and I'm glad I lost at least an inch from my waistline.

Not that I'm not sleepy now. I just didn't feel like sleeping that's all. Maybe it's the bears of Dow Jones tonight. But there's no reason for me to be sleepless over this because I have no investment in any stocks or such.

I have a wedding dinner invitation in Klang, Malaysia. At least this is a good news. I'm happy for this old friend who had found her happiness.

I guess it's the time of the year. Time to do some life re-evaluation.

No Regrets

I don't know if I am cursed or blessed in this case. Whenever I feel down, a few of my close friends will seem to have even bigger problems than me. Perhaps I kind of focus myself onto their problems, lending them my listening ear and after throwing in some cheap advise, when it's my turn to tell my story, suddenly my own problems seems to disappear. Maybe this is heaven's way of comforting me.

I'd always like to tell my close friends, if it can be solved with money, it's not a problem. To me, the worst problems are those that can't be solve with money. You can't buy all the time you need in the world with money if you have cancer. You maybe able to delay aging but you can never stop it with money. Whoever had passed on can't be brought back to life with money. You can't buy the smell of rain with money,can you? Like wise, no one can buy true love with money.

We are our own greatest enemy. We often kill ourselves with greed and envy. Contentment is the key to end all the sufferings. Those "what ifs" are also the top killers. I prefer to call them "cowardice". The fear of breaking out from the comfort zone. Comfort zone here means, things and situations that one are familiar. Sometimes when I get trapped, I would tell myself this, if my great-grandmother didn't have the courage to sail in that Chinese Junk, I would still be in China or maybe never be born. I shall sail on and make my own journey to add a brand new exciting chapter to my family history.

I don't know what's my future gonna be. Not that I don't care. I'm doing all I can at my best. For one thing that I'm certain is, during the last 5 minutes of my life on my deathbed I'd be smiling, because I know I did all I can for things I love to do. No regrets.

Blaaaaaaaa!

Blaaaaaaaa! I didn't do well in my audition. "Not My Day", is not a good enough excuse in my line of work. Actors are supposed to be master of emotion, I thought. However I was a dead fish. I need to slap myself 10 times for that. It's not about getting the job. It's about doing well. Moving on and will do better next time.

Met up with TC and J. We hung out at TC's studio for wine. 3 of us chatted till 4am. Today I was at wake of HC's grandmother. I'm so proud of HC because he never gave up his dream of being a commercial pilot when many around had laughed at his "foolishness". Now he's flying for the best airline in the world. The best part about him is that he's still the down to earth person I know.

Meeting PaPaP on Friday for birthday celebration dinner. This is gonna be so fun!!!

I haven't spoke to my elder niece for 3 days. I'm still very much upset with her. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Audition & Preparation

It's time to work! I don't know if I would get the job but I'm happy to be called up for an audition. Its almost 3am now. Gotta focus on my preparation. Gotta break a leg!

Cheers!

Announcement

I need to earn some school fees for my acting classes. I'm trying to raise 50k to continue my acting education in Los Angeles. Hence, Nuffnang ads have been added to this blog. Please bear with me.

Thank you for your kind understanding.

Mirror On The Wall

Mirror
A Monologue Written By Da Diva
(Work in Progress)
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Woman(late 20s- early 30s)walks into the bathroom talking to the mirror.

You're so careful with things, people you'd care. No I mean to people you think who are worthy in your strange hidden world. You are certainly careful with gifts people sent you as you'd always say, every gift is a thought and well wishes. You always get upset when things broke down, even for a cheap pen. How's that for a person like you? Sweet, wonderful, charming. How's that I never get to understand, the part for the only thing you'd break is me, no second thoughts. How strange... Its amazing how you could love and hold on to someone you hated? How's that? (laughs) This is really funny. Nope I'm serious, no I'm not. I mean really, funny. You know what's the most funny thing is? (long laugh)(beat beat beat)Me.(beat)MEEEEEE! I knew it all along. You fu*king hate me! You FU*KING hate me! (Calms down) Yet I'm still here.(long beat, interrupted by sound, turns her face to the door then puts on her smile)Yes honey!? In the bathroom! Just two more minutes please! (faces back to the mirror) I don't know how you do it. I don't know how I did it. (Quickly tidy up her make up and leave the room)

Before Sunrise

At 630am I walked to the fridge at the balcony to get myself a drink. Yeah I know, don't ask me what's my fridge doing in the balcony. Its a two door fridge to store drinks, ice cream, chocolates, cakes, candy, fruits and a salted fish for the family.

Anyway..........

It was a long night as I was following the news about the depressing Dow Jones that had closed at 8579 and of course I was also busy with my face book games. Just as I was trying to visualize about whats gonna happen to our country and world's economy in my head, I walked to my fridge to get myself a drink and that's when I saw the first ray of hope.

I haven't seen such beautiful sky for a long time. It put a smile on my face. I suddenly got the urge to grab my passport and hop onto a plane so that I can immerse myself into the art of the universe. I'm dying inside to explore foreign land. To be able to experience sunrise at the Pyramids of Egypt or Machu Picchu would be totally perfect. However, I must first make my way to Adam's Peak. I regretted for giving up the plan to make my way there as I was overly tired with all the climbing and walking in other parts of Sri Lanka. That was 10 years ago.

Then again, the sun rays reflected on the HDB apartment blocks in view reminded me this. What sunrise can be as beautiful to be compared to as having my whole family sharing the experience with me under one roof even they were still snoring in bed at 630am?

I say, I have had experienced the perfect sunrise of all, this morning, at home.

Heart Attack At The Bank

I was at the bank today to withdraw from my unit trust investment as the market is really bad. True enough I lost total of 2k. ARRGH..... Oh well , at least I didn't lose everything.

The thing is the guy who served me at the bank today held the title of Personal Wealth Manager. Yet he didn't know CPF account number is the same as NRIC/ID number.... I was shocked when he asked me that question. He even doubted me.

The funny thing is he told me that my withdrawal from the investment will be dated tomorrow. He dared me that I should know this is the case since I make investment and as a front line he has to prepare me about it. I couldn't believe my ears! Every seconds in stocks, funds, forex can mean life and death. I know this very well because I used to trade in Forex. When a customer/client tell you to sell, you gotta sell immediately. Any further delay will cost possible losses. Time is really money. Wait till tomorrow?? What if the market crash again tomorrow? This is unfair to me. He just shrugged his shoulders.

I text messaged my friend who is the VP of the bank and he replied me that it has to be dated today. So I told that Personal Wealth Manager that it should be dated today. His explanation was the documents may not make it to the central on time.... I check the clock on my phone, it screamed 930am. So I told him that his VP told me that there's no problem and no reason why it wouldn't be dated today. Guess what the Personal Wealth Manager said? "Okay if the VP says it can be done then it can be done." I wanted to vomit blood at this point. What kind of answer is this?

I explained to him that I am not trying to tell him because the VP is my friend so that means I can cut queue and make unreasonable demands. But time is money especially in this case, no banks in the world does things like that. He just simply nodded his head. My heart almost burst and die on the spot. I picked up my phone and called my friend to double check again. I freaked out as its lots of money I'm talking about, well at least to me. My friend told me to take his name card and if transaction are not done today. He will file a complain.

It was then he asked me for my CPF account number. As I mentioned earlier he doubted me telling him that CPF number is the same as NRIC/ID number, he asked his boss for help. His boss came to his desk and confirmed that I was right. Then I took the chance to ask his boss if my withdrawal would be dated today. His boss ensured me that transaction will be done to date as they will do the faxing today. After the boss left, he the personal wealth manager finally admitted to me that he's new. At this point I almost burst out laughing. I told the poor stress out manager to relax and take his time to do the documentations.

I text message my friend again after I left the bank and told him about the poor newbie personal wealth manager who didn't know that CFP account number is the same as NRIC/ID. My friend's reply to me was "Haha Must give chance. All of us has been newbie before.Testing time now."

I totally agree. I am glad that I didn't scream, shout or bang table to get my withdrawal done. I can't get angry at the new guy. Do you remember your first day at work? Because I do. Me the famous blur queen who had made many customers vomited blood.

Swimming Cat

I'm back from the pool.
I swam but only 10 laps. The good thing is I didn't eat my strawberry sponge cake with peanut on the side, yet. I'm still glad I went swimming because I'm feeling good.
I'm so gonna swim again on Thursday.

Most of all, I'M SO GONNA EAT MY STRAWBERRY SPONGE CAKE WITH PEANUT ON THE SIDE NOW!

PMS Nightmare

I woke up from a nightmare crying out loud this morning. What a great way to start my day.
Thankfully the weather is cool today so today's not too bad actually. duh.....

Yesterday's shoot was fun. We went to a few good locations. Last location was at Sentosa beach area and we must have spotted 6 other couple shooting their wedding photos. I didn't know so many people are getting married.

I found my wedding gown last evening. I mean I found something I like to wear for my wedding cocktail. I even found a dress I'm so gonna wear during my pregnancy. Nope I wasn't looking for any of "those", just happen to pass by "those" shops and spotted something. Nope, my wedding bells are not ringing yet and I'm not pregnant. Duh.. Why am I even explaining?

Anyway....

Brob will be back on 22nd December! So is MAL !! Missed them both sooo much!!
My former classmate will be coming to this part of the world for the very first time during christmas. Yaay!!

Still, I am not in a good mood.... I've decided I'm so gonna swim 20 laps later. But before that, I want my strawberry sponge cake with peanuts on the side.........

Sleepless

Seriously, I don't see the point of trying to sleep now as its already 928am. Today will be Jacq's wedding photo shoot and I'm to be her PA cum outdoor make up artiste cum stylist cum whatever for the day from 11am -8pm.

I love helping out friends during their wedding, planning and especially photo shoot.

My all time favorite involvement to these weddings is still the HUNT for the perfect gown.

I must have been involved helping in at least 5 weddings so this means I have had "27 dresses"? LOL

I don't know how I'm gonna survive through the day without sleep but I guess 5 liters of coffee shall do the trick.

Yes, this photoshoot was supposed to happen last month but the couple decided to postpone it because they couldn't decide on the location for the shoot. I'm not gonna be the "second unit" today because I couldn't make it on time to borrow a good camera from my photographer friend.

I don't know why I couldn't sleep.

For the last two weeks, I have been losing sleep for no reason. I don't believe in sleeping pills. Maybe I shall get me some lavender oil for my pillows. I suspect these insomanic nights were due to my overdosage on sugar intake as I have been the official "white rat" of Jacq's Bakery.

Its 10am now. I better get going.

Cheers.

Drank Grapes

I was invited to the wedding dinner of Henry Thia's daughter. As usual, we the Jteamers had fun. For me, I shamelessly help myself to many glasses of wine. Please people, I need my vitamin C from the grapes. lol It's always fun to be able to catch up with good old friends from the business.

Dropping by...

I thought I just drop by my own blog for a while.

Not much happening except I bought another new pair of shoe, watched the F1 race on TV, followed CNN news on the mass hysteria of stock market and went to a celebration party of LL with Prince and JF.

I'm also re-reading Dan Brown's Angel & Demon, enjoying myself indoors in the nice and cool rainy weather. This very moment, breathing in the aroma mixed from both the rain and my cup of coffee makes me happy. Life can be simply beautiful. Good morning!