I don't know what got over me

Its so hard to get myself back to reading. I was at borders earlier hoping to find some interesting books. Yet I got quite upset with a book I picked from the shelf because I wasted 10 minutes of my life on it. The title was interesting but the content was not what I hoped for. The author did not come to her point but going in circles. It contained nothing but back ups from researches. The best part was it didn't live up to its title. Then Prince located me at the psychology section and asked if I found anything interesting. I got up from my seat with that book and I almost burst. I don't know why I got so upset, not with Prince of course but the book. Maybe I felt cheated. I went on complaining about the book. Then I tried to find some titles that I thought would interest me. Prince then asked me what I was looking for. "I don't know. Some stuff on sociopath or criminal psycho would be nice." I replied. Maybe I replied too fast. It was then I felt a few heads turn towards me with dropped jaws. They must have thought I am a psycho in the making. LOL Too much crime channels on cable lately maybe....

I went on to the history section. I was hoping to get a good deal from the discounted racks but again I found nothing. Prince after making his payment joined me again and offer his help once more. "They seem to have nothing but ang moh history. Nothing about China." Then a nice man replied "Here's one! I'm sorry but I heard you." I thanked him on the spot but it was a photography book not what I was looking for but even then I felt good and a smile came back to my face.

I don't know what got over me today. But I'm quite sure its my PMS plus I had fallen ill for a week has got something to do with it. Mood swings maybe? I concluded I was just angry at myself for not reading those books I spent hundreds of dollars on (guilt) and upset that I couldn't find my joy in reading (no motivation). Anyway reading is a habit that needs to be cultivated on daily basis. I'll just have to work on to get over it.

Prince and I went on to watch a movie "A single man". It was directed by a first time director who used to be a fashion designer from Gucci. Costume and set design looks very pretty. It was sexy. Half the time Prince and I were whispering to each other "This shot looks like a fashion shoot!" "Did I see or hear Wong Kar Wai?" . It turned out the movie sound track was indeed the same composer who had worked on Wong Kar Wai's film.

During supper, we compared this movie to "My rainy days" which I referred to jokingly as the "Japanese porn movie" because of its movie poster. Of course it was nothing of that sort. It was a love story. Interestingly both shared some common elements. I shall not review too much here. Nah. No spoilers.

I shall feel better tomorrow and get back to my readings.... Hope you are well and have a great week ahead.