No Regrets

I don't know if I am cursed or blessed in this case. Whenever I feel down, a few of my close friends will seem to have even bigger problems than me. Perhaps I kind of focus myself onto their problems, lending them my listening ear and after throwing in some cheap advise, when it's my turn to tell my story, suddenly my own problems seems to disappear. Maybe this is heaven's way of comforting me.

I'd always like to tell my close friends, if it can be solved with money, it's not a problem. To me, the worst problems are those that can't be solve with money. You can't buy all the time you need in the world with money if you have cancer. You maybe able to delay aging but you can never stop it with money. Whoever had passed on can't be brought back to life with money. You can't buy the smell of rain with money,can you? Like wise, no one can buy true love with money.

We are our own greatest enemy. We often kill ourselves with greed and envy. Contentment is the key to end all the sufferings. Those "what ifs" are also the top killers. I prefer to call them "cowardice". The fear of breaking out from the comfort zone. Comfort zone here means, things and situations that one are familiar. Sometimes when I get trapped, I would tell myself this, if my great-grandmother didn't have the courage to sail in that Chinese Junk, I would still be in China or maybe never be born. I shall sail on and make my own journey to add a brand new exciting chapter to my family history.

I don't know what's my future gonna be. Not that I don't care. I'm doing all I can at my best. For one thing that I'm certain is, during the last 5 minutes of my life on my deathbed I'd be smiling, because I know I did all I can for things I love to do. No regrets.