I refuse.......

I would love to let it all out but I can't because I knew you wouldn't want me to. Everyday for the last 8 days I can feel as though someone's pushing a pin into my heart twice a day. Then I saw your smile in my head every time and always just in time before I gave up holding back my pain and gone berserk.

You sure knew me well with all those years fighting those battles with me side by side. How could you not my brother and dear friend? You were the very few rare gems in this world who truly knew me well.

May you rest in peace.

Yes, even if you're gone we are still a team like before and I'll fulfill your dreams. What a life to take, what a bond to break, I'll be missing you.